My Dear Sister Kak Ngah

Surprise! Surprise! I was surfing the net one day out boredom and lo and behold, I came across a blog written by my third sister. Terkejut jugak la aku tengok and baca blog dia.....

Wow, ramai betul followers dia, from all over the world, tapi blog dia more towards tatting, if any of you are interested in tatting boleh la jengok her blog (tatsaway.blogspot.com). Frankly my Kak Ngah ni is the most creative among us siblings. She likes needlecrafts and is very good at sewing. She even attended a sewing class done during the lunchbreak at her office, dulu while she was working with BSN. Now she is no longer working, she optted for early retirement from the workforce and is now a full time housewife. She now has more time to concentrate on her needlecrafts and pursue other hobbies that she had no time for when she was working. She is also a good cook. Apa yang dia masak memang yummy, I especially like her apple pie, makan with vanilla ice-cream, sedap..... Wish I am half as good as she is when it comes to needlecrafts and cooking.

Hahahahaha, dream on la, the only thing I'm good at is doing the cross-stitch, other then watching tv, lazing on the bed with a good book. As to masak memasak, erm banyak yang tak menjadi dari menjadi....... hahahahahaha, tried baking, tapi cake yang aku bake semuanya bantat, masak lauk-pauk pulak either terlebih garam or terkurang garam, never could get the taste right. Kiranya aku ni pandai makan aje la ni hu hu hu hu, agaknya tu la pasai nobody trust me with the task of cooking the raya spread. My usual job for raya would be get the house ready, marshal the children around and jeng jeng jeng the top most job, cleaning up the mess after dia orang dah habis masak. Tapi tak pe lah each to his own, if semua nak jadi tukang masak sape pulak ye nak ngemas. Right!

Demam La Pulak!!!

Hai, hari ni running nose la pulak, tak larat nak kejar dah hidung aku ni...... Adui nak menafas pun susah. Lagi la nak buat kerja, lagi la mamainya dibuatnya. Yang tak bestnya, air-con kat office hari ni terlebih lebih la sejuknya....... Ke aku aje yang perasan macam tu? Aku tengok orang lain relax aje....Tak complain pun pasai air-con ni...

Ke ni disebabkan penangan hidung ku yang tak berenti-renti nak belari... Oai penat la, my dearest nose please, pretty please can you stop running, I'm so tired of sneezing and going to stand at the stairway (nak the heat) sejuk sangat......

Tolong la stop running, penat dah weh nak kejar kau wahai hidung ku........nak edit the paper yang perlu aku siapkan by tomorrow pun tak de mood nak buat. So, please, I'm begging you on bended knees to stop running and sneezing.......

My Niece's Convocation July 2008

A few of the photos taken with Mak, it was a joyous and happy occasion at the moment in time. I will cherish the memories.......always......

Mak , My Sis, Dad, Nana, EG (Nana's brother) and me (don't I look fat in the photo... kah kah kah)

Nana with her grandmother and grandfather

Mak and Dad with my second sister's family at Nando's Australia

Gold Coast, Australia

Slow Day

Fuh! *Sigh* I'm so tired and sleepy today! I feel so the malas to do any of my work. This attitude could get me into deep shit if I don't shake myself out of this feeling of lethargy. Half of the day was spend running around trying to unblock my mobile. CELCOM barred my mobile just because I was late by one day in paying the bill. CELCOM, CELCOM, why r you so dilligent this time around? Why o Why? Had to run to PJ to settle the bill and by the time I finished and get back to the office I was so hungry (penangan tak sarapan sebelum pegi settlekan the bill) hu hu hu hu....

Went to the main office and persuade everyone there, including my boss kih kih kih to have a late breakfast. Had my fill, then realised that it's was time to go with Dato' to Pusat Kraftangan in Jalan Conlay. Rushed to get my things and went to the lobby to wait for Dato', lucky I was able to make it in the nick of time.....if tak feel the wrath le nampaknya...huhuhuhu.

Hem... looking and studying my blog, it looks so unattractive compared to some I've seen, my blog is so full of writing, orang masuk singgah kat sini pun mesti boring..... Ye lah no photos or nice graphics to attract the eyes and senses..... Dull kan! When I've the time nanti I will try to pretty up the blog but for now, sorry to those who visited the blog to see nothing but miles and miles of writing ^:)^

Okay time to get back to work.......before somebody comes knocking on the door and sees me doing nothing hahahahahaha........

A Week Later

It has been a week since Mak passed away, I could still see her face clearly now and felt the coldness of her cheeks when I kissed her for the last time. Dad is now slowly getting use to the idea that she is now gone. On the day Mak was buried, Dad spend the whole day in a daze and he cried himself to sleep that night. He used to have a good appetite but now, this past week, he just ate in small amounts and not the portion that he usually take. Another change I noticed, is that Dad now refused to eat alone, he wants company around the table, someone to eat with him. Apa-apa pun sebagai anak kita semua cuba penuhi pemintaan dia yang ini. Now my sister makes sure that there is someone who will sit and eat with Dad at the table.

To Reenaz my new cyber friend, salam to you and when I click on the link to go to your blog, it directed me to some other place. I wonder whether the address is typed wrongly or there's another technical problem to it. Anyway, if you are reading this entry, I would love it if you could supply me with the correct address. The other day I just went into your blog to say hello and salam pengenalan, tak sempat pun nak copy the recipes on the page, especially the pudding, it looks so yummy delicious. Ingat this weekend if I'm in a rajin mood I try buat the pudding. (I do love to spoil the BM language, selalu sangat guna bahasa rojak). I think if any purist of the BM language is to read this blog, he or she would be fuming mad at me for spoiling the language. Anyway Reenaz, glad to know you and if I can get the address right, could I link you?

First day at work after the three days compassionate leave, and wow so many things to take care of, so tired now!!!!! Have to keep my cool on certain things........InsyaAllah bolehnya....

Bereavement

DEATH IN THE FAMILY! On 10th March 2009, my Mum drew her last breath right after azan untuk solat isyak habis berkumandang. At her bedside pada masa tu, was my youngest brother, his wife, my eldest niece and her husband and two of my nephews, they were all reading the yasin at that time while Amir, Ninie's husband and my youngest brother took turns to ajar my Mum mengucap. She breath her last right after my brother Fir finished mengajar dia mengucap and Jie, Fir's wife told me that she could see my Mum's mouth moving in unison with Fir as dia mengucap.

Yesterday was the funeral, she is laid to rest at Tanah Perkuburan Sg Tangkas, near UKM. I didn't go to the cemetary yesterday, I just could not make myself go there, I looked at Mum for the last time before she was taken to the cemetary, she look so peaceful, muka Mak begitu bersih dan tenang. Alhamdullilah pemergiannya begitu mudah and aku redha dengan pemergiannya. Moga Allah akan mencucuri rahmat dan menempatkan Mak di antara orang-orang yang soleh....Amin.

Now our worries are with Dad, how he is going to cope with Mak not being here, by his side like before. The whole of yesterday, he spend the day termenung and before he went to sleep semalam, he cried and kept saying, next it will be him going to be laid to rest near Mum. Kami semua takut that he will go into depression and will go away in his sleep......Takut yang Dad akan will himself to death.

Tawakal

Dah lama jugak ye since my last posting. A lot of things have happened since then. Banyak sesangat, sampai my emotion has being going topsy turvy, churning away like the windmill. But the most important, is that my mum has now taken a turn for the worse. Late last week, she fell from the bed while trying to get up from the bed by herself to go to the bathroom. I don't know how it happened but according to my third sis who was looking after her at that time, she heard a loud bang from the bedroom, and when she ran into the room, she saw mum lying on the floor, at that time mum was still able to speak, but.... now, she's bedridden and could hardly speak. her breathing is also erractic.

Today mum is warded and the doctor said that her kidneys have failed her, and due to this her blood is infected, and the doctor is putting her on a 24 hours observation. The doctor said even though the infection could be cleared up but he doesn't give us a 100% guarantee that all will be well and she will be out of the woods. The doctor also told us to prepare ourselves and not to leave her alone. Banyak bacakan surah yasin untuk mak, itu pesanan doktor untuk kami adik beradik.

Just now, during lunch hour I rushed to UMSC to see mum, my third sister and her husband plus my two younger bothers were also there. I feel so helpless not knowing what to do to ease my mum's pain. Am I a cruel daughter to doa pada Allah to take her to his side so that mum would not be in so much pain, since the doctor also cannot guarantee mum's full recovery. Ya Allah teruk ke aku ini sebagai seorang anak, hingga sanggup berfikir sebegitu. I feel so bad....

Right now as I'm writing this, my eldest and second sister, as is my cousin and his wife are all on their way to UMSC. My emotion is still going on a merry-go-round and to make it worse I just had a tiff with my younger brother just before leaving the hospital.....and that makes me feel so down! A truly trying time for the whole family and that I have no doubt of, as my brother said the other day, Allah sedang menguji kami semua dari segi kesabaran dan ketawakalan (I not too sure whether there is such a word in BM, tapi what the hack, guna aje lah, I'm murdering the language and I know it would not sit too well with purist of the BM language) dalam menghadapi semua ini. Kekuatan ikatan kekeluargaan kami jugak sedang diuji sekarang. Hopefully it will stand the test!