Roller Coaster Ride

It has been a roller coaster ride for me this week, emotion wise - with running here and there to make sure that everything run smoothly for the "Speech Drafting Workshop". It wouldn't be such a roller coaster ride if the people who are supposed to be helping with the logistics part have not gone missing for hours for the two days that the workshop was running.

On top of that I have the DiD class to teach.... that's another thing I have to think of, notwithstanding the classes that I have teach in Wisma starting next week. I'm so worried that I will not be able to get all the materials ready for all the classes. Now I'm just so tired, mentally and physically, and it doesn't help to have people jumping on you for the slightest wrong in the planning, even though it's none of my fault..... orang lain buat aku yang kena salvonya... mana tahan macam ni....

Come to think of it, if I can bomb a few people, I would have done it with much pleasure two days back, sadist tak my thinking.... a friend of mine commented that I'm full of anger and hatred this past few weeks, and he asked me to chill out sikit and enjoy life. I think I'm going to take his advice... nanti kena hypertension pulak... no way would I want that... sakit nanti susah, sapa nak tolong and I also would not like to to be a burden to others.... Insya Allah...

I'm hoping with all my heart that next week will not be another roller coaster ride. So, I better get cracking on the materials for the Wisma classes.

Geram

Hai la apa lah orang ni, dulu cakap lain, sekarang cakap lain . Letih la aku dengan orang ni... pelik betul aku dengan orang ni, if dia yang tak ikut procedure tak pe, bila aku... panjang la leter dia, nak kata aku tak ikut procedure PUN, ye ke aku tak ikut procedure..... aku tak akan buat cara tu if aku tak dapat kan green light dari dia juga... hish geramnya aku....

Yang dia tu kadang melangkau batas tak pe.... bila aku dah salah la pulak, aku rasa aku tak de melangkau sapa2 pun....e-mail dihantar serentak, salah aku ke yang tu dulu respond pada e-mail aku..... hish susah betul la dengan dia ni..... kadang2 benda yang dia sendiri tak rasa confident nak buat, dengan senang hatinya dia lumpkan aku sama2 dengan rasa tak confident dia tu..... he tolong la ..... aku bukan kau la weh ... apa kau ingat kau tu ada more experience than aku, so kiranya aku ni bodoh la sangat and tak boleh buat apa yang kau tak boleh buat .... tolong la sikit jangan pandang rendah sangat kat aku ni..... GERAM GERAM GERAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM .. bila orang ni merajuk, satu dunia tahu, canang sana sini mintak orang duk belah pihak dia... pelik bin ajaib betul aku dengan orang

BERAPA LAMA LAGI AKU HARUS TERUS BERSABAR NIH.................

Reflections

Come to think of it, plus minus and subtract here and there... actually i don't quite like long courses. I prefer the short courses more... he he he he and I don't have any specific reasons as to why I don't like long courses. But if I'm the one attending the long course, that's another story all together. The bottomline is I just hate, erm maybe not hate, too harsh there, more like just plain dislike long courses... period.

A Meaningful Day

27.10.2010 - after so long, today I meet a dear friend from my childhood days, the last we met were when we were both in primary school. After primary 6, we parted ways when she was chosen to enter MRSM, while I was selected to continue my secondary education in Kota Baru. Then her family moved from our little hometown and we sort of lost touch, even though I do get news of her from time to time through mutual friends but we never see each other face to face until today.

I knew that she was given a scholarship to continue her studies in the States after form 5, her marriage to somebody from Kuwait not long after, the demise of her mother a few years after her marriage, and how she decided to be a parmenant residents of The United States. But through the years, I have thought of her from time to time, wondering how her life is in the States, is she happy there and a multitude of other questions. Thanks to facebook, we are able to re-connect and re-new our friendship, after a number of e-mails between us, and through facebook, I got to know that she's back in town. So we set-up a meeting today at Wangsa Walk in Wangsa Maju and had a good time yakking and catching up on each others' news. She's now seriously into painting and she showed me some of what she had painted...beautiful pieces it was, and she told me that she is seriously considering have an exhibition of her paintings. I wish her all the best in her venture.

I hope this friendship will continue to flourish. Ninnie, you have not change at all, the years have been kind to you and all the best to you..muaaaaaaaaaaaaah. InsyaAllah, this Saturday we have set-up another meeting at another venue, together with a few of our other primary school friends. I'm looking forward to meeting Mek Nor, Nab, Fozie, Ana and the others.

InsyaAllah I will post the photos taken at the renunion this Saturday.... if I remember to bring the camera with me ....\\(^ 0 ^)//

PTK (^ o ^) PTK

After spending sleepless nights worrying about the darn PTK, lo and behold one day before I was to sit for the PTK, our dear PM announced in the 2011 Budget, come June next year PTK will be abolished and a new format of assessment will be carried out for the civil service. And that would be another story, hope the assessment that is going to be implemented will be better than PTK. Keeping my fingers cross here, hahahahahaha

But, anyway I went for the PTK as scheduled, and the talk that was going around before I entered the exam hall was that since we are the last batch to take the PTK, everyone was hoping that everyone will be awarded 4, 4 - hah fat chance of that happening... Whatever it is, just have to wait and see....and play the waiting game..

Debaran

Debaran makin terasa, one more day to go, hope I can do it, and do it well..... Ya Allah tolong la hamba Mu ini...

Dup Dab Dup Dab berdebar-debar jantung ku mikirkan Saturday ni....huwaaaa tak nak anything bad berlaku...