Merdeka Day is just around the corner, and Eid Mubarak will be with us soon. Today is the 19th day of Ramadhan, and so far, this fasting month is not the same as the fasting months of yores, is it because I'm getting old, or because deep down I don't feel happy and full of regrets about what I have done with my life. So many regrets, and this Ramadhan, makes me think deep and hard about life in general and of the wrongs that I have done...

I wish I could undo what have been done, and wipe the slate clean, but I know it is something impossible to do. All that I can do is pray to Allah to have mercy on me and He would pardon me for the wrongs that I have done with my life. This is also the second Ramadhan without my mother around, sometimes on certain days during this Ramadhan, I caught myself thinking of her and thinking of how dissapointed she is in this daughter of hers... I pray that she is at peace at the place where she is now, and may Allah be merciful to her too.

And the bottomline is, I do miss my mother, missed her barks and her acceptance of me even though some of my behaviour must have hurt her feelings more than I know. Al-fatihah to you Che..

Alhamdullilah

I feel so relief....now I'm no longer officially the secretary to the my office Welfare Club. A burden off my shoulder. Now if only I could let go of the other one then my life would be much, much happier... but, that's another story....I know one day that will also go away and I hope it will happen soon.... I feel that I'm not contributing much to success of the project and I'm letting a lot of people down....

Hari yang fenin.....so many things happened today...some unexpected....and now I'm all screwed-up because of it....... How I wish with all my heart that the old crowd are all still here.... I miss them, I miss the camaderie, team spirit and the love for the place.. where have it all gone to...


I REALLY MISS THEM.... THEY ARE ALL GONE, ONLY A HANDFUL LEFT........

I wonder what will happen to this place in the years to come.......and whether I'll still be here to see more changes and upheaval happening to this place..... When I look back to the day we move in and to the joy of occupying this place and the feeling of camaderie and team spirit that was still so much alive and strong, it sadden me so much to see how things are now....... Heemmmmmm

Tension ,tension, tension....wei tak tau nak buat apa untuk class besok..... Wah parah ni macam ni....
Kepala buntu.... tak de idea..... tension.... tension

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Adam 2 Months old

Just Plain Tired

I just don't get it....I'm always tired, and so easily these days... erm is age catching up with me....hei hei heii..... mungkin kut...I'm not as young as I used to be, I admit that, but would love it, if I don't get tired so easily... letih, letih, tired, tired.....bawak kete pun boleh ngantuk... apa-kah....takut dibuatnya..... what if I come a cropper nanti