Posa

Posa is just around the corner, half of the year nearly gone and a lot have happened to me. I wonder what more is waiting for me for the rest of the year, only Allah knows. I can plan but Allah will decides whether what I plan for the rest of the year will bear fruit or not. Yup, looking back to the past months of 2009, it had been an eventful year.....


POSA.....talking or thinking about posa makes me realised that this year, Che (that's how I addressed my late mother) won't be around to share the Ramadan with the family. I wonder how posa would be like this year....last year everybody spent the fasting month and had the raya celebration in Kuala Lumpur, a first for Che and Wae (my father) not to posa and beraya at the kampung. Yes definitely it will be different this year. For me there won't be any mad rush to buy ticket to go back to the kampung 'cos I'm not too sure as to where I'll be celebrating this raya, yang penting sekarang posa dulu.

DIHARAP BULAN YANG PENUH BERKAT INI AKAN MEMBAWA BERSAMANYA KEBERKATAN UNTUK SEMUA UMAT ALLAH DIDUNIA INI, TAK KIRA DI MANA MEREKA BERADA..... AMIN...

Venting my frustration

I hate it when people looked down their noses at me and have this holier then thou expression on their faces, especially when the course is running, as if I have not put in my blood, sweat and tears to ensure that the course would be a success. I REALLY REALLY HATE IT..... ar'gh.... but I have to istighfar banyak-banyak and keep saying to myself sabar, sabar think of their age, otai kata kan, but ar'gh, one of them really bugs me more than the other...hem sabar aje lah..

She has this holier than thou attitude everytime we have a course to run together and never lift a finger to help with the logistics for the course and when anything goes wrong... the blame falls on my lap, is that fair?????? aaaaaar'gh thinking of it is enough to make my mood go all sour. Just because she's pampered at home and everything gets done for her, don't expect the same thing at the office, buat sama-sama la, berat sama dipikul ringan sama dijinjing. All she wants to do is, sits back like a queen, with arms akimbo, and look down her snooty nose at me scurrying around ensuring that everything is in place. I thing that what really bugs me most is when dia bekira sangat about the division of work. If it appears as if I have less teaching hours then her, she'll go crying to the Director, asking the Director to intervene on her behalf and to make sure that I get equal cuts of the pie same as her...and most of the time the Director will side her, just because they are good friends from way back. All she wants to do is just to waltz in and teach. But she doesn't give a thought that while she's happily teaching, I'll be running around in circles, chasing after the course clerks to make sure that everything is in place and no hiccups will occur thoughout the duration of the course and at the same time preparing for my lectures.

Talking about the course clerks (one otai and one with an attitude) and in some ways the P.A to the Director too is part of the circus, is another story all together.... enough said. Come to think of it there's more otai compared to the not so otai in my division....erm sabar aje lah.

Busy Moments

This past few weeks have been a whirlwind week for me, even the weekends were not rest days - either I have to work or ran errands for people, and this weekend is also the same. But ni kira macam curi tulang la ni, jengok here kejap to write something...

Phew! letih betul.... and is this going to be the trend for this year, I don't know.... even my third sis is bengang with me, all because I said that too much had happened this year and that I'm not ready to fall in with her plans... *sigh* I seemed to be rubbing people up the wrong way aje this year *sigh* .....

And on the workfront, every time my boss decides to take a long leave, that is the time things decide to heat up.... and I have attend all these meetings in her stead... *another long sigh*. Why o why do all the bigwigs on the third floor of Block A decided at this particular time to hold meetings to thrash things out, and I will be spending so much of my time in the Executive Meeting Room.. something I don't particularly like to do....hem it will be just a three way discussion anyway... tu yang bosan tu, any ideas given by the rest pun, are always brush aside... tu yang buat malas tu..tapi nak buat macam mana kan sebab dah budaya, in accordance to the saying that yang tua lebih arif, lebih banyak makan garam...... hei hei hei tu sebab agaknya ramai yang ada darah tinggi kut!

Ooops, gotta go, my eldest sister is hollering for me....... better run now before I get another person all tied up in knots because of me... hei hei hei

Not a Good Day

Yup today is not a good day, I have been driving like for upteem years and nothing major have happened, tergesel and tercalar situ sini tu biasala...... masa mula-mula dapat licence dulu pun, yang paling teruk pun, I dented the bumper when I accidentally pressed too hard on the accelerator while reversing and bang!!!! I ran smacked into a tree I didn't see was behind the car. Nasib at that time my father didn't scream bloody murder for what had happened. I think he knew I was already shaking in my boots while telling him what had happened to his precious car......ALHAMDULLILAH but today........

Hua, Hua Hua somebody bang into the back of my car today. And to make matter worst, the car I was driving was not even mine. The car belongs to my friend, a brand new MyVi, bought just two months ago...... I feel so bad and guilty to boots...... Nape la aku gatal nak guna kete dia...... but when I called to tell him about what happened, he was nice about, even saying "..it's alright, what's important is that nothing bad happened to you, yang penting selamat...." Hua, hua, hua, lagi la buat I feel sooooo guilty. If I was more careful all this would not have happened.......

A lesson learnt, to be more careful on the road.... Thinking of all the hassle I had to go through today, make me wish so much that I could put back the clock and erase what had happened this morning....... Sampai sekarang, while writing this, rasa bersalah tu masih tebal lagi dalam hati ku...

HUA, HUA, HUA, HUA HUA.......

Anak Sedara ku Dah besar

My sis, her husband with the anak and menantu baru

My nephew's wedding, 7.6.2009, the boy I used to baby-sit in his formative years is now somebody's husband. Dah besar!!!!!!! but I still see the small rolly polly boy I used to bath, suap makan and rocked to sleep. I am happy but there's a tinge of sadness too..... I wish him all the happiness in the world and a happy married life together. Aku juga doakan moga jodoh mereka berdua akan berkekalan sepanjang hayat mereka dan segala onak and badai dalam menjalani hidup bersama akan diselesaikan dengan aman dan penuh iman.

Part of the rombongan dari pihak lelaki.......

Anak-anak sedara ku lagi and thier uncle, my younger brother.

Gambar-gambar dari my cranky mobile, hope it turns out well bila dah publish nanti. Almaklum la pixelnya bukan la tinggi sesangat....

This Saturday, 13.72009, majlis rumah pihak lelaki pulak, mostly semua dah siap tapi I know my sis mesti rasa penat sesangat getting everything ready for the kenduri. Don't worry sis, I'm here to help you, just give me a shout and I'll come running no matter the time, come rain or shine.

Bulan yang busy

Baru dapat jengok, tapi sekejap aje, this month memang jadual padat. Tak kira lah on the work front ke or kat rumah. Eeee banyak betul nak buat, tambah my nephew pun nak kawin bulan ni, akad nikah dia pun 5.6.2009 ni, my sis mesti tak menang tangan nak uruskan kan macam-macam for her son's wedding ni. Aku - macam biasa la tukang nyibuk, buat apa yang patut, kah kah kah kah..........

And talking about wedding, memang banyak wedding invitation yang datang, sampai tak terkejar nak hadir, tambah2 if the weddings fall on the same day and majority masa quite close....if jarak between the kenduri tu dekat tak pe la pulak, ini tidak ada tu nun kat utara, selatan and tengah. Tu baru kat belah pantai barat, if masuk kat pantai timur....tak tau la aku....
Anyway terima kasih ku ucapkan pada yang sudi menjemput and mohon maaf pada yang tak sempat ku penuhi jemputan tu. Tapi pada semua ku ucapkan "SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU DAN MOGA BERKEKALAN HINGGA AKHIR HAYAT".....

Pada kawan-kawan ku yang sedang bercuti sempena cuti sekolah ni, Selamat Bercuti ku Ucapkan. Bila balik kerja nanti hopefully dengan semangat yang lebih berkobar-kobar lagi, demi anak bangsa semua!!!!!